Tuesday, May 06, 2008
The Romance
Hey everyone!! it's been ages, hasn't it? I was reading some of my old posts and I reckon I'm not that bad of a blogger. To me, that is :).
Well, yes, to the topic of love. Why am I writing this? Because it's been coming up. Ever been through something so painful that you'd forget? In med, it's called motivational forgetting, aka repressing memories. I have. Two years worth of them in fact. And I think some others after that. The pain I've been through because of them makes me believe that some things are better forgotten. However, God has been saying to me this, "Give them to me. All your past, hurt, pain, unforgiveness, the good, bad, ugly, etc. Give them all to me and just rest in my love." It's been coming up. In Vive, Crossway aka Big Church and OCF. It's been all about love.People say that relationship with God can be somewhat equated to a romance, though not fully. In a romantic relationship, the guy woos the girl. He buys her flowers. He whispers sweet nothings in her ear. He literally rejoices (as lil kat jensen says it, "ostriches"), sings and shouts for being able to love her. He wipes her tears. He plans surprises for her just to make her day special. He thinks of asking her whether he could hold her hand but ends up linking his hand with hers and holding it tight by the end of the night. He kisses her and reminds her of his love for her. To him, she's the apple of his eye. That is the same of God. It says in Zephaniah that God rejoices and sings because He loves us."For the Lord your God is living among you.He is a mighty saviour.He will take delight in you with gladness.With His love, He will calm all your fears.He will rejoice over you with joyful songs."~Zephaniah 3:17~He also wipes our tears. He says, "Woman, don't cry." He holds our hand through life and guides as well as protects us through and from all harm. He also gives little surprises each day to rejuvenate our spirits because He knows our needs best. God has not bought us flowers but He made creation (the birds, trees, flowers and everything else in the world) for us to enjoy. He whispers to our ears sweet things like "You're beautiful because you're wonderfully made in My image" and "I love you". He thinks of us all the time. He thinks of you all the time. He thinks of me all the time.But does it feel real? Is it truly possible? Yes, it is. However, do I love Him back like a girl who is in love? A girl in love seeks the company of him who she loves. She strives to please him by the things she does. She would talk to him into the wee hours of the night, trusting him to safeguard her love as she pours out her heart to him. She appreciates the comfortable silence in his presence. She desires to learn more about him each day and all that she knows is never enough, so she devotes her time to knowing him. She glows because she loves him and knows she receives his love in return. She rests secure in his love. Am I all these things and more for God?I've always had trust issues. I never believed that there was such a romantic love for me. That no one would ever pursue me. If I opened my heart, all I would receive is hurt. The pain of the past has ebbed away all faith in people and yes, unfortunately, even faith in God. I do a lot of Christian stuff and people always ask me, "Grace, how do you do so much?". Honestly, I don't know. Perhaps I serve to find Him who loves me. Or that I read and do bible study in hopes that one day I'll believe in His love for me. Or maybe...just maybe, I want to understand what it means to be that woman in love.So, with all that God is telling me and all that I'm going through, what's my conclusion? It is this: I choose to have such a romance with God. Just as He pursues me in His love, I will pursue Him in my love. I will devote my time to knowing Him as He devotes His time to know me. I will rest secure and rejoice in His love. I am definitely not ready to date a guy. I don't think I can handle that yet. But should anyone ask whether I'm in a romantic relationship, here's what I will say:
I am seeing a great Guy. In fact, He's the most awesome guy I know and most of my friends know Him personally. I spend my time talking to Him and going on dates with Him. His surprises and gifts are the best. I may not get what I want all the time but He certainly is able to provide all that I need. Who is He? Well, He's a Jew and so His name is popular amongst the Jewish community. But He definitely goes by many other names. Yes, it's gonna sound a little cliche and expected but I'll still tell you His name anyway. This guy that I love so much...His name is Jesus. :)So, now that you know I'm taken, you'd better find someone else :P. Till next time, God bless you.
"How I love you" by PlanetshakersHere I stand, before you my heart is stillWanting just to be with youWaiting here, I long for Your voice to speakTouch me now, It's Your face I seekHow my soul longs for YouTo be with You, adore YouNothing more I want to doThan to sing to YouJesus, I'm in love with YouSpeak to me, whisper Your words of TruthTake my heart, won't You make me newJesus, how I love YouHow I love YouOn my knees, before You I lay my lifeGiving all in living sacrificeTake my life and all that I long to beSet apart only for You my KingHow my soul longs for YouTo be with You, adore YouNothing more I want to doThan to sing to YouJesus, I'm in love with youSpeak to me, whisper Your words of truthTake my life, won't You make me newJesus, how I love YouHow I love YouHow my soul longs for YouHow my soul longs for YouHow my soul longs for YouHow my soul longs for You
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