Saturday, March 31, 2007

Helpless

Ever felt that you're the most useless person in the world? Sometimes you know from your gut feeling that your friends are going in the wrong direction but how do you tell them? Especially if it may cost your friendship? Am I brave enough to move on? Do I have the right words? Why do I stand and watch all the time and only regret when it's too late? How do I convey the feelings of pain and grief whenever I see them walking that path?

just

feel

lost

and

alone.

Can someone save me? and them too? I truly wanna help in practical ways but is praying that God would help them all I can do? I wish I knew. I can't help them and I'm in a ditch myself too. I need a way out, Lord. Show us a way out. To be free of the chains of sins which binds us. To believe that You, O Lord, are in control. Do not give us up to our sinful nature but save us. I promise as long as You're gonna help me, I'm gonna get myself out of this ditch. And then, I'll bring Your light to others and I won't give up. Not for mine, nor for theirs.

No, I won't give up

No, I won't break down

Sooner than it seems life turns around

And I will be strong

Even when it all goes wrong

When I'm standing in the dark, I'll still believe

Someone's watching over me

- "Someone's watching over me" by Hillary Duff -

Posted by grace :P at 11:54 pm

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Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Enjoying myself

I'm sure that it's common knowledge that I have been EXTREMELY lazy. ahaha. well, there goes my new yr's resolution. anyway, eversince my course started, I've been having nothing but fun!! sure there are some boring lectures/tutes, but hey, what's uni without them?!

I've already been on the transition camp and guess what?! I got to play on the giant swing!! it's like 20ft high and after having been properly harnessed and strapped to the swing, I'm pulled up to the highest point and then I have the choice of pulling the string or not. Well, I went up there feeling really geng and with the mentality it isn't that scary. However, when I reached the top, I started freaking out! I was like no way am I gonna pull that string and drop straight to the ground!! But fortunately, I did and screamed my head off while swinging. ahaha. IT WAS AWESOME!!

Then uni started and I've been enjoying some of my classes.

1. Med interview
we get to do roleplays and try to interview ppl who have to play the role of a patient with a this and this condition. So, it's really interesting especially when some ppl are such good and funny actors. once there was this guy who acted as a patient who was basically upset about her daughter who gave up med school for her bf. so he said, " Doctor, normally I'm fine but when I think about my daughter and her giving up med school, my headache comes on. However, when I think about her boyfriend, I feel like my whole body's aching." There were guys acting as couples and other stuff. you figure it out!

2. First Aid classes
As I haven't done any first aid thing before (even though I was a bulan sabit/red cross member on paper), I was really excited. Apparently, us first years face a tendency of being treated as doctors although our medical knowledge = zero. So, the first aid course is one of the ways for us to at least jaga air muka (have face) and be able to do something in an emergency. So far, we have learnt CPR, how to bandage ppl and other stuff. It was enjoyable to hear all stories of emergencies that happen. My tutor had actually placed the emergency book in her toilet and there was a period when her nephew was staying with her. Whenever he came out of the toilet, he'll be asking funny questions like "so if there was an emergency and I don't have the first aid kit with me, what do I do?" haha, looks like my family isn't the only one who does some reading in the toilet :P.

3. Stakeholder tutes
This is the time when someone from the community will come to talk to us about things related to whatever we were learning that week. So we get to hear stories from people with disability, people who had undergone natural birth although the baby had breech pregnancy and others. This week was about how caesarian section is overused in the birthing process, especially when breech presentation is involved (where the baby's bum/feet are facing the cervix instead of the head). I had a lady who had three pregnancies and in her last one, she had given birth to twins. one was normal and the other was a breech. She even brought a video of her giving birth!! It was exciting because she had water birth, i.e. she gave birth in a water tub. Amazing, ain't it?

4. Clinical skills
I have now learnt how to wash my hands. haha. We had to sing happy birthday (apparently the time taken to sing happy birthday is 15 secs) while scrubing our hands and the "hip, hip, hurray" part is where we wash our hands. I also got to wear the surgical gloves, coat, cap, and mask. haha. Next tute will be injections but that'll only be in slightly more than a month's time. However, it still is something to look forward to XD.

Well, this will be it for now. I would like to blog more cos there are other things that are bothering me but they don't exactly fit into the mood of this post. So, I'll post it next time. And I promise to have pics up too!! Happy April's Fool!! till next time, take care and God bless.

Posted by grace :P at 7:10 pm