Saturday, July 17, 2010
Poker face
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"Above all else, guard your heart for it is the wellspring of life"
Proverbs 4:23
Rosalie, in her notes (link above), talked about guarding her heart for God. How interesting that it should come out at a time when I felt like my heart was running away from my brain. Having read that, it was like God reminded me that my heart's rightful place is with Him and no one else. Not even me. So, no matter how I try to please Him by curbing my heart myself, it won't work. The only person who is able to do so is Him. So, God, here's my heart for your safekeeping. Sorry, I took it back for a while.
On a better note, let me tell you about patients I have seen in psychiatry. Psych is seriously a fun place to be as the patients are very interesting in their own way. However, I must say, the working conditions and the people I have met there so far are not as I expected.
In the last two weeks, I have been following Sarvesh, a psych reg at Davey St. Within that period of time, I can count the number of patients I had seen in one hand. I have also been questioned as to whether:
1. I take afternoons off to go and have coffee with my boyfriend. God knows that there's no such person and I truly detest coffee.
2. I use my afternoons to get drunk at pubs or smoke marijuana. Do I seriously look like such a person?! I've got too much of a good girl look to even give people such an impression.
3. I use the hospital's internet to watch porn. Firstly, I don't. Secondly, it's practically impossible to be able to do so as the hospital bans practically everything on the internet. Lastly, should I do so, would I have let him walk in on me when I was using the computer in his room?!
I seriously do not get Sarvesh's humour. I hardly find it funny and I hope he gets the hint whenever I do my awkward laugh. If not, well he ain't my business no more. I'm not there any more, thank God. Was going to be bored out of my mind.
So, patient no.1 had onced claimed to be seeing and hearing ghosts in the ward. One night, the nurses heard howling sounds and decided to investigate it.They arrived at a door and found the source of the noise. When they opened it, they found the patient making howling noises. No wonder she hears ghosts, the poor thing.
Patient no. 2 has always find it difficult to do things as he is hunched and is slow in all his movements. During the week, he was having a discussion with part of the treating team and something they said must have upset him. He became agitated and angry and was swearing a lot. Realising that they weren't going to allay his frustration, he ran towards his room. Just as he was nearing his room, he stopped. Suddenly, he hunched his body and began to move at an extremely slow pace into his room. Hilarious. I believe, for a moment, he forgot his poker face.
Now, perhaps I should go and practice my poker face so that I would not be found out like these two. Anyway, this week was way better and more productive despite having less done. I feel proud of myself. I'm going to try my best to ace this :).
Posted by grace :P at 12:44 am